Don't know what to title it as !

Have you ever felt yourself blackout?
When the vision looses dimensions and it is the only one point where you can focus at. You feel like standing outside your body, which is now, exanimate.
Your ears start buzzing and the only thing you can hear is your racing heart beat.
You are so centered on it that nothing else seems relevant, everything around you is bleary but that one thing has an image clear enough to pursue your subconscious thoughts or dreams, and you wish you could bring those incomplete dreams to an end to see clearly what it is.
You are too scared to stay that way and hate to come back down as at that moment you feel so light, your life, your soul is concentrated in your heartbeat.
It seems to be the one thing you have been chasing your entire life, unaware though.
In a flash you are back, in the earthy body, with the brain doing too much.
You try and go back but you can't, you wake up every morning thinking what it was, trying to conclude the unfinished....but it’s gone.
Once again, the journey begins, you're back hounding for hints.
The thought of it keeps you awake, keeps you going.